Ten Years and many changes

 It's been 10 years since I posted here. It's been so long I'd completely forgotten I even had a blog. Morgan is married and in Texas. She graduated from UVU with her Bachelors degree in botany. Her hubby is working on his doctorate at Texas A&M; I believe in political science. Broden and his partner live in Santaquin. His partner is a talented barber and Broden is doing surveying at the moment. He is looking into going back to school to get certifications in technology computer-y stuff.  David is still at home with me. He has been volunteering at a local charity on and off and is responsible for his funny ESA cat Bubbles. I am blessed to be their mother, they have grown into wonderful adults and I am so proud of them.

Me...I graduated with my Associates degree in Psychology a few years ago. I am nearing the completion of my Bachelors program. My degree was going to be Elementary Education and Special Education-dual licensure...BUT....I am going to be graduating with my degree in Educational Studies instead. I can't afford to pay tuition and student teach for free. Gotta pay the bills.... I will be taking the alternate path to licensure and hopefully be teaching a special education class of my own next school year.  

I still update more frequently on Facebook, and a bit on Instagram. I started a little side hustle repairing old quilts and making household items (table runners, etc). I hope to have more time to promote and work on that after I graduate. 

Blessings to all. Be kind to each other, bring light into this dark world.

2013

It's been a couple of days since I last posted. :) I've moved back to SF with the kids so they are closer to school, friends and dad. Morgan is being accepted to college after college. ( I know, I'm really not old enough to have a child ready for college. Child bride, you know....) Boys are doing well at school and at home. I'm healing and making progress in being healthier emotionally and physically. I'm planning on furthering my education very soon, I haven't decided when I'm ready to start back. The last year and a half have been the most difficult I have ever faced. Divorce, legal action taken against me (long story), and a freak out about possible cervical cancer. 2013 is going to be an amazing year for peace & healing, I can feel it! Facebook has been my source of updating people about my status, and most likely will continue to be that way. Considering how often I post to this blog, I may be better off just deleting it. We'll see what happens. Meanwhile, Happy New Year!

Final

Well, after all the drama, lawyers and money the divorce is final as of December 6th. No, I'm not dating, nor do I have any inclination to do so. The kids and I are living in Payson.Blair has the house in Spanish Fork. Blair and I have joint custody right now. I'm still at Maceys, and my goal for the new year is to enroll in school. The kids are doing surprisingly well. We all have our days, but overall we are all doing well. Thanks you to all of you who have given your love and support during this challenging time for our family.

THE Article

So here is the article I mentioned in my last post.

http://www.deseretnews.com/article/700147203/Blending-motherhood-and-working-Moms-work-by-choice-2-and-also-out-of-necessity.html

Divorce proceedings are creeping along and consuming all of my time, energy, and money. The kids are doing ok.

I've got a cute little place in Payson for the kids & myself. Unfortunately, no internet there yet, so I'm not keeping in very good touch with anyone.  


Thanks to all of you for your love, prayers and support.

So it's been forever.....

So much has happened since my last post. I guess the biggest news is I'm getting divorced. Blair & I just can't have a healthy relationship and counseling has done no good. So that's the biggie. There are a lot of reasons for the divorce, but it's not appropriate to air all the gory details, so that will have to suffice for now. The children and I are living with my parents for the moment. I have filed, and am waiting for Blair to file his response. The children are handling it pretty well considering.
So less distressing news :
The Deseret News is doing an article on working moms. Guess who my boss at Maceys thinks is interesting? Me. Go figure. So this cute little reporter came and interviewed me at work. A few days later they sent a photographer. That was awkward......Today she came to the house with a photographer and took pictures and observed my morning routine. SO not interesting....They'll be coming back after school to follow me around some more. The article should be out in a Sunday edition in June sometime. There are loads of other working moms they are interviewing too, including another cashier at Maceys. So hopefully there will be more them and less me.
Had David's IEP meeting this morning, I am so freaked about him being in junior high.....he'll still be in a self contained unit similar to the one he's in now. BUT....change is hard....you know? He had a great time with the photographer this morning. The guy was so sweet, showing him his camera and explaining it to him. The other kids weren't too excited about the whole thing.

Today's Davidism: After showing him a photo of a friends new baby horse...." Mom, thanks for showing me that image. It boosts my morale."

Today's Davidism

"Mom, you make friends faster than a hippopotamus poops!"


Feeling less angry already. Off to have a fun girls day out. :)

Anger

I am so full of anger lately. For lots of reasons.
 Today I took David to McDonalds. He wanted to  play on the playplace.  He was playing so nicely with the other kids, he was taking turns, helping the smaller kids. Which, by the way, is a HUGE thing!I heard a couple of the moms making snarky comments about the height limit and "looking" at me. Yes, he is over 4 feet tall. Oh no. Call the playground police. I opted to not say anything, but seriously I wanted to go over and make a huge scene. I really wish they'd had to guts to actually say something to me. If he LOOKED like he had a disability (such as Down Syndrome) would they even think twice about it? Maybe they would. I am just so tired of explaining. He has autism. He functions socially at a kindergarten level. He likes hanging out and doing stuff with kids that are about 5.
He was having fun. We left before I punched someone. Luckily it was a chilly, but sunny day and we went to North Park to play for awhile longer.

I watched this episode of "Parenthood" (WARNING: Swearing--watch minutes 3:12-5:05 & 23:46-25:00)-and could totally relate to the dad. It's where I am right now.
 I am so angry and I don't know what to do about it. I can't go around punching people in supermarkets or McDonalds. :)
On a less angry note, Blair got a job! He started Monday. So things are looking up. Now, just to get the mortgage company to cooperate.
Ok, I'm off and I'm going to try to not be so angry.